I should have seen this coming, from the way you treated other people. I guess I'm just like any other friend of yours, easily thrown aside to be forgotten. In fact, I should have seen so many other things coming. But I'd need to tell myself not to regret over and over again about all my life decisions.

Some people can truly make you feel like they genuinely care about you. I don't mean it in the "lovers" way, but just as friends. Like how the response in a simple MSN conversation can tell. You know that the person on the other side is just so eager to chat with you, to catch up with you from the pace of the conversation. The replies come quick. No hesitation. Just speaking what comes to your head and your heart first. Don't you think such conversations are so much more enjoyable than those in which you wait for minutes just for a one word reply? I really dislike how some people take ages to reply when you're talking serious, as though they're pretending they can't care less about you.

I can't wait to step into the HK airport. It's always given me this special feeling, since I was 6 maybe? It's the only place that makes me feel the welcomed. The feeling of it giving me a big, warm hug. Telling me where My heart truly belongs. I've grown to love going back to HK alone since a couple of years ago, because it allows me to take in this wonderful feeling from every radiating corner of the place. And of course, there are the people waiting for you behind those gates.

I just feel so drained of emotions all of a sudden. Well, to be exact, drained of positive ones.

Uninterested. Indifferent. Uncaring. Selfish? I just suddenly thought of you. Of the words you once said. All those empty promises. You've changed so much ever since, and we've not spoken to each other in ages. It just angers me, how you can so easily neglect everything that you once claimed you cared about. You made excuses, I was fine with it at that point of time, but I guess, not anymore. I don't even think you'll even read this anymore, and might probably not know that I'm referring to you.

I got a letter today. I dunno if what I'm feeling is even disappointment. The feeling of disappointment has changed so much, ever since I came to Melb, ever since I left what truly is "the comfort zone". Does it make you feel empty? Because that's what I feel right now. I really wish someone I love right now would come and hold me, for the rest of tonight, and make me feel as though nothing else matters. I think I've been watching too much romance. Stories always have happy endings, but real life doesn't necessarily provide that. Wake up Onyu, wake up.

Expectations, can really make you feel so much pain.

Onyu says (10:33 PM):
meoww
peiqi. says (10:34 PM):
woof woof
Onyu says (10:34 PM):
chirp chirp
peiqi. says (10:34 PM):
ping pong
Onyu says (10:34 PM):
wtf???
how's that an animal sound???
peiqi. says (10:35 PM):
i dont know
i cant think of anymore
Onyu says (10:36 PM):
LOL
there are tonnes of other animals in the world!!!


Yup I've been spending lots of quality time with KPQ since Jess left. Haha I hope I'm not getting influenced by her retardedness. Can't wait for the weekends when KPW finishes with her exams then we can party! <3